So I am Amber and I have a boyfriend and live in a house. I am 20 years old and right now in my life I feel that I have everything to experience yet nothing to live for.... I have a JOB that I make **** pay at.... I have a boyfriend that just doesn't understand the little things in life that are huge and important to me.... I have a car that is not going to pass inspection in PA and it's still Ohio plates and all that jazz..... I live in a house that is great and for being 20 years old and having a house that's great.... right?! My mom and dad love me very much and have never done anything to delibritly hurt me.... although when I was 3 years old my biological mother died and my dad and grandma raised me until one day my dad brought home his girlfriend and the next thing I know I am in the wedding and I have a step- brother who both love me very much but it's still just not the same. I don't know much about my biological mom but what people in my family have told me about..... I was homeschooled after the 5th grade and until 12th grade but don't have a high school diploma... which means I have yet to get my GED.... I started working on getting that when I started dating my boyfriend who had recently gotten a divorce.... and has a 3 year old daughter..... so needless to say GED was put on hold yet again.... and the college career that I wanted.... yeha can't afford that at the dead end job that I am at..... My car is only going to last for a couple more years I am sure.... then what? WHat do I really have in my life to show who or what I am..... NOTHING..... The love I pour out everyday to my boyfriend... just gets annoying to him.... the job only pays half of the bills I have and the fact that I live in Pittsburgh now and I only know a few people out here it's real **** cuz I have no one to be around and socialize with.... And for a girl it's very important that socializing is in her life..... well I think I am done rambling on for now I will write more later.....